Baby Emma Update - 10.29.09

As I wipe the tears of joy from my face...I really am at a loss of words of what to say tonight as I post this update from Emma's Mom Sophie. The joy is unmeasurable...indescribable...absolutely abundant & overflowing!!!!! For 42 days, God has been listening. Tonight, we praise his name & shout his glory to the heavens as we thank him for answered prayers. Baby Emma...we love you more than you'll ever truly know honey. And Sophie, Tyler & Ava...thank you for letting us hold your hands over the last 6 weeks. You inspire us beyond belief...

Tomorrow...we will pray for continued healing...but tonight we will rejoice, rejoice, rejoice!!!!

Day 42: Emma and I went for a wagon ride throughout the hospital tonight. It was bitter-sweet. Bitter because of all of those dark memories that will forever be burned into my memory... Sweet because... well let's get through the bitter first...
As I pulled the wagon by the PICU doors, I recalled the many times I ran out of those doors in tears, scared, angry, sad. The many times Tyler and I walked in through those doors after her many procedures, anxious, nervous, sick to our stomachs.
I made my way through the hallway a few steps and memories of that first day - those first moments came flashing back... I looked to the window and remembered my social worker allowing me to 'stand right there' so I could catch a brief glimpse of my baby girl as she was being urgently wheeled through the hallway, surrounded by the trauma team... I had no idea what was happening - why was my baby not breathing on her own? Why was she unconscious? What were we doing here? What happened?
We passed by the radiology room (aka CT scan room) and I recalled all of Emma's numerous 'emergency' scans - Ty and I would always follow Emma's gurney to the doors and wait right outside, praying for good results, crying, fearful for the news to come...
Emma and I made our way back to our current room in Rehab, and walked by the NICU waiting room, where I would escape to at night for a few minutes of solitude. I remember hugging that young new mother who was crying for her 4 day old baby. That hug actually made me turn a new leaf in my faith. I felt like maybe I should give Him a shot. I did. It worked. He listened. He still listens.
Ending our wagon ride, we walked through the door to our room and I recalled the wonderful, amazing doctors, nurses, social workers, and therapists that we met along the way. I thought of all of you, many who we don't even know in person, who have reached out to us to offer your prayers and positive thoughts, inspiring stories, and words of courage and sympathy. There are good people out there.
I looked around the room and breathed a sigh of relief as I looked at my baby girl ... this is our last night here. Now that's sweet.
Love,
Sophie and Tyler

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Home Sweet Home

Motley Crew : ) - 1985

You know I'm a dreamer

But my heart's of gold

I had to run away high

So I wouldn't come home low

Just when things went right

Doesn't mean they were always wrong

Just take this song and you'll never feel

Left all alone

Take me to your heart

Feel me in your bones

Just one more night

And I'm comin' off this Long and winding road

Chorus

I'm on my way, I'm on my way

Home Sweet Home

Tonight, tonight...I'm on my way, I'm on my way

Home sweet home

You know that I've seen

Too many romantic dreams

Up in lights, fallin' off the silver screen

My heart's like an open book

For the whole world to read

Sometimes nothing keeps me together at the seams

Chorus

I'm on my way, I'm on my way

Home sweet home

Tonight, tonight....I'm on my way, just set me free...Home Sweet Home

Ouuuh...I'm on my way, I'm on my way...Home sweet home!!!

Yeaaaah....I'm on my way, just set me free....Home Sweet Home!!!